Laura's Journal

12:32pm: Does anyone have Hey Monday? I've recently discovered them because of the CitizensFOBmixtape thing and they're great! I have some dls i can give you if you want....thx!

11:01pm: Writer's Block: You and A Fictional Character of Your Choice



Edward Cullen...

DUH

11:47pm: haha omg

so today at work there was this little boy and he had like a cut or something on his middle finger and he was telling me about it and i was like "oh no!" and he showed it to me, and totally flicked me off...hahaha...totally random i know. anyways, off to bed. work at 9 tomorrow. yay!

p.s. totally new guy at work. he smells really good. haha! it's been a long time since we've had a cute guy working at office max...lol. laterz!

9:57am: Dream Last Night
So I had the craziest frickin dream last night:

So I was working...but it wasn't like my job, which is Office Max. It was some other job. I don't remember. Annnnyyyways...I went on a 10 minute break and boy was it a 10 minute break. I went to the back and it turned into like some old something street. And like I was meeting up with someone and like I was part of a movie and like I was supposed to drop my handbag on there and like run to the chick I was meeting up with and her kids.  The one chick that played Reese Witherspoon's bff in Sweet Home Alabama played the chick I was meeting up with. I dunno. So then I set my bag down and ran, like I was supposed to. So I talked and talked then realized my bag was still there and saw that some bearded man stole it and I like ran after him and he pushed me down! I was like "hell no, I'm not taking that!" So I ran after him and it turned into my back yard and the kids started chasing after him too! And jumping over the fences! I was like "holy frick!" Then my character like fell in love with the man that stole my purse and married him. wtf? Anyways...on to the next part of my dream.

So then I was in this house where I was babysitting this kid. He was so adorable. He was probably like 2 maybe? I went to go give him his bath and his brother...omg...his HOT brother (like my age) was in the bathtub waiting for him to take a bath with him. So I set him in there, trying not to look at anything (if you know what I mean haha). So jokingly I said "okay, you guys all set? Call me if you need anything." Like I was their mom or something. The hot brother just laughed. So then I just kissed the little boy on the forhead and did the same with the brother, idk why. lol.

So then...um..lemme think. I think I was out in my backyard. It was daytime and there was a trampoline and like a bunch of little kids playthings. And I was out there with...Alex Gaskarth from All Time Low (hahah lmao), McFly, There For Tomorrow, andd....i think that's it. hahaha. omg idk why them, but it was just weird. but i just stood there while they all messed around. Alex kept staring at me for some reason so I just waved at him. And I can't remember exactly what they were doing, but they kept playing obscene word games or something, like mad-libs without the paper or something. Then the McFly guys went in the bathroom and took a bath together (hmmm...) i have no idea why. They were playing another word game only meant for British people apparently. So then they came back out and Alex was on the trampoline and still kept staring at me. I waved at him again, then I was like "why do you keep staring at me?" and he was like "I don't know...you're eyes are all puffy, but it's like I could stare into them all day and see the future in them." I was like whoa...he said more but I don't remember.

The boys kept doing their obscene word games. Then my 7-year-old niece came out and I told them to take it down a notch cuz she was here. For some reason she had blonde hair, cuz she's a brunette. Anyways, when she walked up, she had brown hair again. So then she walked up and she went down a little slide that was detached that one the guys was holding for her. And then she saw a big my little pony thing you could ride and she was like "oh my gosh, a my little pony, can i ride it?" and i was like "adisen, we've always had that." and she got on it.

And that's when I woke up.

So that was my dream. This dream was probably the craziest dream I have EVER had. EVER. The best part I think was the whole alex thing *wink wink* lol.

7:13pm: uhhh
omg i hate my fricking english teacher! so i had my midterm today and the last question was to capitalize the words that needed to be capitalized in the paragraph. easy right? so i went and did the whole 3 underlines under all the words that needed to be capitalized. i went to turn my test in and asked him if it was okay that i did that and he said i couldn't just underline them and i told him it was the mark you made to capitalize words and he was like "ive never seen that before..." and i was like "well that's what ive always been taught." and he was like "well just go back and make it all pretty for me." so i had to go back, erase all the lines, and do it all over again his way. omg im so pissed. and the way he critiques our papers. everyone hates it. "no this is wrong, your paper is too short, the margins are off." UHHHH...omg.

So on a good note, we had to write a paper for this week (as we do everyweek lol). And the topic was "what happened when i hitch-hiked on my honeymoon. I loved it. So it had to be 1 1/2 to 2 pages long. Mine is 5! idc. He won't care, i know he won't. I'll post it later. But I love it! It's so good i think. Hopefully you readers will too. Anyways, gotta go do other stuff, whatever it is. I'm so mad I forgot Breaking Dawn at my house. I was gonna read it on my break. Oh well, I'm doing this instead, lol. Talk ya'll laterz.

10:24pm: the rest of my day

so the rest of my day.

I  read for a while. The book is soooo good. You guys MUST read it. Anyways. I pretended that i was doing my hw in my room. yeah right. anyways i'm already on like...the idk the 3rd or 4th chapter. soo good. so anyways. after that i went to work. boring. we have a new girl. my coworkers don't like her. i like her. i know what its like to be the new girl right? anyways. work, came home, did nothing. k im gonna catch up on my twilight fan fic, then im going to read the real thing...ha!

<3 you bbs!


p.s. on my way from work, this guy cut me off you know where at a stoplight turns from two lanes to one lane? anyways he cut me off like speeding and there was a cop behing me and he totally got pulled over. it was HILARIOUS! omg i was cracking up like almost all the way home. i texted amber and she was like "AWESOME!" haha. anyways, gotta go...

10:21am: oh and btw!

you need to go vote for there for tomorrow for the mtv vmas for best new artist! the "pages" video and "no more room to breathe" video are up!!! so go vote for those boys! you know you love them...go vote for them NOW!!!

http://www.mtv.com/ontv/vma/2008/best-new-artist/a-z.jhtml?chars=t


<3 you all!!

10:06am: my day so far..
so here's my day so far.

I woke up at like 7:30 cuz I wanted to rush and get Breaking Dawn, the brand new Twilight book that came out today. Borders opens at 9, and I figured that there would be a ton of people waiting at like 8, but to my surprise there weren't. So I got up at like 7:30 and left at like 8 and got there around 8:20 and I was the only one there!!! I was like dude wth? Are there like hardly no Twilight fans in Mishawaka?? Oh well, it's to my advantage. Then around 8:40 a black car came and sat there for like 10 min. and I was like "you better get outta my way bitch I'm gonna get that book first!" lol! So they left after like 10 min. I sat there for another while. Luckily I brought my business law book with me so I had something to do.

Then another chick pulled up at like 8:50 waiting too. So we waited and a few other cars started pulling up. And they finally let us in.  I was like the first one in and grabbed it and the first one to check out and buy it and get out. HA! So I have it....then I had to waste some time because...so...

So since my dad was up...um...I kinda told him I was going to school...cuz well my dad gives me all these lectures about spending money. So I got gas and went to walmart to get some stuff. So that wasted some time...

Walmart omg. So I went in and got some aloe vera lotion cuz me and amber went to warped tour on thursday ( which was AMAZING [and sry i forgot to post about that]) and i got qtips and something to take in my lunch for work today and fruit snacks and granola bars for school (cuz dude my classes are 4 1/2 hrs. long, i need something to eat during my 15 min. breaks, right?

Anyways...I was walking back to check out and the guys were apparently cleaning the floors and the floor was still wet and i totally slipped and FELL!!! omg it was so embarrasing!!! i like almost did the splits. I dunno if anyone noticed or not. There weren't a lot of people around. But idc. There weren't any wet floor signs around or anything...which kinda pissed me off, but oh well. I told the cashier that i wasn't mad, which i wasn't, but my legs are all dirty and my legs are kinda sore. Oh well...

Mkay I'm gonna go take a shower for work cuz I should...then I'm gonna go read Breaking Dawn cuz I must...ha! Talk to you bbs later! ily!

1:17pm: vote for my sister!!!
So my sister entered this contest called Big Shot Live! It's like a nationwide talent contest thing. If she gets enough votes she'll get to go to Hollywood or something. So vote for her! In order to vote, you have to have a profile, but it's worth it, right? Here's her profile: 

http://www.bigshotlive.com/js/userp.php?userid=4350&utm_source=Sailthru&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=Invitation 

So vote for my sister! I'll love you forever!!!

<3 Laura

 

10:05am: animal testing
so i was on the peta 2 website (peta2.com) and like i was reading a thing were they showed all the products and companies that tested on animals and didn't test on animals. there were TONS that don't, which is really good. but like there are a ton that do that we all use. like a lot are owned by proctor gamble. like crest, max factor, cover girl, pantene, garnie. i mean, wtf? animals don't wear makeup dude. they don't need color-stay shampoo. they don't need anti-frizz or shine conditioner! omg. the funniest thing was that BIC is on there. what do they do, give the animals pens to see if the ink writes good or not? i don't get that at all. i mean why do they use animals to test products that we are gonna use. i mean pet foods i guess i get, but they don't have to treat them so bad. some companies claim that they treat them like their own pets, but i heard that some mess with their vocal chords just to shut them up. wtf? this is horrible. if you want the whole list go to peta2.com and click on the link: http://www.peta2.com//STUFF/s-cf.asp. anyways. yeah. stupid right?

11:13pm: ew

so i started school today. boy was it lame. school usally is though. have i mentioned that i love fruit snacks? yeah. im in love with them. lolz. but yeah school. lame! i only had two classes, one at 11:30 and one at 2:30. in between the two, i made a there for tomorrow flyer. its on the schools compy though. but what's retarted is that our printers at school only print in b&w. ikr? i probably couldn't put it on here cuz i made it on a mac cuz the computers at school are gay cuz the macs have photoshop and the pcs don't. GAY. jk. but yeah, it was pretty cool. dude i totally accedintly typed school instead of cool...does that mean i think school is cool? no wayz. lame. but yeah um it was cool. anywayz i wanna drop my 2:30 class cuz its not my style. it sounded cool but its not what i expected. its like a poetry class, and that's not how i roll. no offense to all ya poetry folks. that's just not me. 

omg today i was hanging tft flyers all over school and handing them out. haha! i have to do that for the street team. but i have to take pics. so i put some in the bathroom and still took pictures. lol! but yeah then i went to t-bell cuz i was STARVING! so i got a nachos grande w/o meat (i don't roll with meat) and tomatoes. then i gave  the lady  a flyer haha. then i went to borders to get a book for that gay class that im just gonna drop. no point, right?

then i went to work early. i just hung out and ate my yummy nachos. nachoes? nachos? nachos. nachoes? i dunno. haha. i ate them. they were awesome. but messy. so like i passed out my flyers to all my coworkers and took pics. im gonna get racked up with points homes. im superexcited! dude. anyways. then john, our desktop publisher guy (i work at officemax btw) he did some crazy shit with it and did amazing flyers. but if i make a bunch of them, it's gonna cost like 20 bucks! im like okay. I'll come in. it's totally worth it dude. they're amazing.

so i clocked in. work was so effing boring. one of the guys left early cuz his mom's car broke down. he was all like saying that his mom's car was a piece of shit and broke down like 6 times and she still won't get a new one. crazy. so he left and that left me, my manager, and another dude. and today, in was like pouring and storming like God drank too much sunny d. and our roof was leaking all over the store and we had like 8 trash cans all over catching them. wow. 

it was a tiring day.

sry if i made spelling errors. im effing tired. sry.

fruit snacks rule!

www.myspace.com/therefortomorrow
go...NOW.

3:57am: oh yeah!
 so amber and i are going to see ender sunday and im superexcited. even more superexcitedness, we're going to see there for tomorrow the 19th and im WAY super excited. omg i so cannot wait. oh and don't forget to burn those for me amber...muy importante amber! lol. anyways, i so cannot wait. if ya'll don't know who TFT is, that's them on my icon. check them out at http://www.therefortomorrow.com/index.php   and www.myspace.com/therefortomorrow. They're pretty much awesome. I love them. Watch the "Pages" video. It's pretty much awesome too. It's got class and it's deep too. Christian is gorgeous in it...he's mine ladies. Haha...jk! He's someone elses, so no one can claim him but her. They also did a cover of "Icebox" by Omarion. In my opinion, though, TFT does it so much better. so yeah, check them out. they are doing a tour now. check them out NOW!

3:35am: dude...

i totally have my sleep schedule all effed up...whoops. so i start school monday and i so don't wanna go. i hate school. but who doesn't? i love studying stuff, but stuff that i have to take, like english, i hate. cuz i suck at it. lol. but sometimes the stuff i like to study, i suck at it. like...science. i love studying it, but i suck. i guess it's that thing "you can do anything if you put your mind to it." right? yeah. um, i would take it if i had the time. that's everyone's excuse: i don't have time. my effing job keeps giving me too many hours though. stoopid right? yeah but anywayz. lol. yeah i am that weird. um...i dunnos. school's retarted and i want out. sry amber. i was thinking of doing online classes and work, but if i drop out of school, i would hafta start paying that whole crap load of financial aid that i got for my year and a half of school. crazy. plus i owe like a $1000 to an effing hospital in indy that i went to like 2 yrs. ago. they keep calling and i never pick up. haha. well sometimes i do and i make up the excuse that i can't pay and the lady's like "do you want to make a post dated check?" and im like "no." and she gives me her number and i never call her back. lolz! adulthoods retarted. i want out.


Well siging out for now. It's like almost 4 and that's when my dad gets up and he'll be all like "Laura what are you still doing up?" Dang my brother's not home yet....I'll just say I'm waiting up for him...lolz.

4:35pm: cookies
I love making cookies. Even more...I love making cookies for people. It's fun!

 

12:52am:  boys are confusing. thats all i have to say.

4:54pm: ow

so thursday i got my wisdom teeth pulled out. yeah, sucks. my mouth still hurts like a mother.

7:50pm: random
I'm eating a grape popsicle right now. I'm holding it with my teeth. And I'm licking it occasionly cuz its really cold. DUH! But get this. When I bite it, it tastes like cough syrup. Yeah. Gross.

2:12am: Mixed Signals
I'm so freaking tired. I'm so freaking sick of my computer. I'm so freaking sick of mixed signals.

First of all it's 2 in the morning. That's why I'm tired.

I'm sick of my computer cuz it fucking retarted. I hate it so much.

As for the mixed signals. I fucking hate them. This guy that I've known for a while now is sending them to me. It's pissing me off. So we went on a date like last year or something. We decided like a couple weeks later of almost dating that we didn't have enought chemistry. It was mutual. But I still liked him off and on. So yeah. Now he's sending me mixed signals. What the fuck. I don't fucking get guys sometimes. I hate them a lot of the time.

There was this other guy that is in my life that sends me mixed signals sometimes too. He's not like in my life right now cuz he's like in Minnesota or something til like the end of the summer then he's going to Latin America. Yeah I was heartbroken cuz I'm totally in love with this kid. And I hate him for sending me these fucking mixed signals cuz one day it seems like he likes me and another it seems like he just wants to be my friend.

I hate guys. I fucking hate them. We should rule the world.

p.s. sry for the language...i don't normally cuss like this. this is a special occasion. ; )

11:34pm: oh im ready for it...come on bring it

so i hung out with the fam today. it was pretty much fun. i usually hang out with jeff and jenny and the kids like twice or thrice a week. lol. "miami is nice, so i'll say it thrice!" lol. you have to love rose. if you don't watch the golden girls, you have to. it's old yes, and was around the time i was born, but who cares! we love the 80s.

anyways, i hung with the entire fam today. yes, including amy and jon and their kids. that hardly ever happens. the only time i ever see logan and gretchen is when they spend the night at our house. i mean they live in laporte, and i understand it's kinda far away, but it's still nice to hang out with your family every once in a while. 

i know jeff and jenny live in south bend and all and are over like pretty much every day. sunday after church. wednesdays cuz adie is over at dave's house. they're not always here wednesday's, but yeah. then randomly throughout the week. so they're here a lot. amy and jon however, never or rarely come over here. pretty much only for holidays. they didn't come for father's day. they mailed a card for mother's day. i mean it sucks. they keep to themselves. plus jon's mom and dad live like in their neighborhood, so they can see them anyfreakingtime they want. logan and gretchen are growing up and i can't see them anytime i want cuz they live like an hour away.

adie, lindy, and zach, however, like i said, i pretty much see everyday. i still do feel old though cuz adie and gretchen are gonna be in 1st grade, logan's gonna be in 4th, lindy's going to preschool, and zach, well, is gonna be a year old in a like a week or so. so yeah, i feel old, even though im 19, almost 20. 

anyways, im getting off subject. but today, was a family get together sorta day. it was a lotta fun. we just played outside and had pizza and stuff. i took a ton of pictures, being the picture freak i am. photo is my thing, and i am studying it. that's a whole nother entry though. but like then we went to the park it was a lot of fun. adie wasn't with us cuz she was with dave. 

see here's the story. adie is jenny's daughter. jenny had her with dave out of wedlock. they didn't get married. then jenny met jeff and they got married after like 5 or 6 months of dating. dave and jenny have joint custody of adie and he takes her every wednesday and every other weekend. then jeff and jenny had lindy and zach together. jeff also has a 16 year old son, jeffrey, from another marrige, and a 21? 22? year old daughter from a gf from high school named ashley. ive never met her.

but yeah. when we got to the park, everyone played baseball, cuz baseball is logan's (and adie's) new thing, but remember, adie wasn't with us. so they all played baseball while me, gretchen, and lindy went to the playground. ironically guess who we see there but adie and dave. how funny. so i told her everyone was over there playing baseball and i was like "ooo i wanna play" cuz you know, bball is her new thing and she's really good at it, and she's only 6! but yeah. so me, lindy and gerty played. i must have taken like 20-25 pictures. im such a photo geek. they were in b&w too. how awesome. i can't wait to get them developed!

so then we went back when my film ended...which was 75 pics, which i had other pics on there too...lol. and then played bball. i played too. i felt so...like...i dunno. awesome? like...like in "snakes on a plane" the line "oh im ready for it/come on bring it" kinda like that. but yeah. i hit it. single. then adie was on 2nd. so amy was up. she struck out and adie batted. so i stole 2nd. then stole 3rd. then stold home. YES! omg i loved it. i kinda wished i didn't quit softball. yes, i played softball. little league. im a dork.

so then we went to DQ after it got dark. it was packed because it was like 9:45 and i think they closed at 10 or something. so everyone ate their ice cream. zach was funny as usual. then these boys came in...omg. and zach was eating my mom's cone. and i was taking the paper off and he started crying so lindy comes up and gives him this huge bite of her ice cream. oh it was funny. then later adie was showing us how dave showed her how to make farting noises with her armpit. so jenny was trying to do it too. then my dad was like "have them (pointing to the cute boys) show you." so one of them tried it and couldn't so he made a sound effect with his mouth. it was funny. so then we said our goodbyes after that. we kissed we hugged we said our i love yous and good bye.

so yeah, that pretty much wraps up my day. how was yours?

1:27pm: Nick
So I wrote this in my journal a while ago. I decided to put it on here. I was doing devotions and I hadn't written in my journal in a while because I sprained the right side of my hand.

I haven't written in a while. My hand's better though. I'm doing guilt this week. I'm not really guilty of anything. But I read in Matthew about when Judas hanged himself and it really made me miss Nick. What a trigger, huh? It's been like 5 years. That's a long time dude. And little things remind me of him. I remember writing in my journal the night it happened and I found out. What I remember is I was coming upstairs and I heard crying and I went in the office and Brett and Jessica where sitting on the floor crying and Mom was sitting in a chair and I asked what was the matter. Mom took me out and I was even crying cuz I thought it was like family or something. But then she told me Nick died. I started to cry. Then I asked how and she said he took his own life. I started crying again. Inever knew of anyone who did that. I didn't want to go to school the next day, but did. Journalism was quiet and, of course, not the same without him. It was a really rough day and rest of the year. Like from that point on I like was so mad at God for taking Nick and turned my back on Him I became so depressed for the rest of the year and didn't want to live anymore. That summer though, I met a friend and everything changed, for some part. We became really good friends and he got me to come back to church my sophomore year. I came back to God and wasn't angry. I never did understand why God took Nick or why Nick did that, but I will always miss him.

To those of you who don't understand who Nick was after reading this, he was my best friend my freshman year of high school. He took his own life January 16, 2003. We had met in our Journalism class when he sat next to me and we became quick friends. That day and the weeks after were the worst of my life and I didn't want to live anymore. I met my friend and my current friends from church and they helped turn my life around and now I have a lot of things to live for, and I love them for that.